Pondering

As I retreated into myself and my own wee world today by having my headphones in and just pottering away at the jobs of the day, like the washing, changing the sheets all the mundane horrible jobs that one has to do...I started pondering school going back this week, what jobs I have on my to do list, what things I need to get done today and for a meeting tonight.

At one point it felt totally overwhelmed at how much I have on and how much is to be done. I got the certain urge to run away somewhere quiet or retreat to my restful place and hide! But as soon as I started running through all the but todays it's only xyz I have to do, so tomorrow leaves ABC it seemed more managable but still quite daunting and I felt quite pressured with everything on my plate. The next 2 songs on my MP3 turned out to be quite timely My best friends the creator of the universe, and as I listened and sung away in my head I thought about it he created the universe and I know that I carry things lighter when I share my load....or offload to Him. The next song was Chris Tomlin, Amazing Grace and thats so true theres all this stuff in my life that not many people are aware of and this song softens my heart and helps me acknowledge where I have come from. Just hearing these 2 songs made me feel lighter and as I kept on with the tasks at hand I realised that I no longer felt that deep urge to run and it's all too much.

So today, right now I'm grateful for the opportunity to retreat into myself with my MP3 and to come out the other side lighter and better for it....and thats the end of my self focused blogging today.