I have been blogging

but I haven't been publishing some of the things in my head I had to get out and this is/was a far too public forum for me to spout off all the things in my head. Some about me, some about other things....I did however just release two of them that are some of the stuff I had going on and was feeling.

Not sure how resolved things are for me with some of the inter-personal stuff, but I'm happier than I was which is a great start. I have some direction which I'm happier with I hated the stagnent waiting that I was left with. The wanting to deal and sort and move on but was stuck in this weedy muck.....but I now think it's time to move forward, finally the mucks being cleared out and I'm pleased that can happen.

I'm leaving a whole pile of junk behind in my wake (a good head clear out and a good autumn clean/throw out). I have cleared out heaps of crap I had stored, the school fair got some of it for white elephant (it wasn't crap, lol) the clothing bins been getting the crap clothes and the good clothes I've passed around friends so it's a great feeling.

So a fresh clear start for 2010 but just started a few months late.....

My hidden blog pt 2

Well I don't know where I stand and I thought before was bad enough but now I truely have no clue about my role or anything. I just want to run far far away from it all and leave it in the distance but at the same time the idea and values behind it I love. So I am left twisting and turning inside, I'm angry, frustrated - very frustrated, sad, unhappy and wondering where to from here?

What now? How now? (Brown cow) Why? and Arghhhhhhh all come from my head!

my hidden blog!

Well I've haven't blogged in over a month as things have been totally nuts for me. Business has been busy and juggling that with the kids and some other things I have been involved in have been consuming.

I have been waiting to see what happens with one the groups I'm involved with and it's been an interesting thing to watch unfold. I will need to make a decision in the next few weeks about our involvement for the future or more so my involvement for the future. This will come as a challenge for me as I totally support and believe in what the groups doing but I'm just not sure how I can fit with that any more and how I can work effectively so I'm considering my position. Theres so much more I could say to get it out but thats more suited for a private document.

So the last day the burdens been heavy and I guess thats why I'm here to get it all out of my head so that tonight I might sleep and not have all this stuff in my head.